I love you till you don't

Fleeting feelings of fevers
Wounded by the heartland
heralded by my tribunal
sanctify the disturbance

Chasing still souls
searching undone holes
feeding hungry tigers
living on the unknown

What I have goes away
What I dont have stays

The permanence of transience
Leashes forever

Rivers rifting for rescue tolls
Leaves rusting for thunder pours

Riding on a white horse
Your light in shining armor
Love's you till the beginning
Love's you before it ends

Touch me through the vein
Luster, my love
Let me leave you again.

Wait of decide

Spiral rods for straight roads
Circular beasts in tender nests
Bequeathed breath of borrowed bread
Waiting for decide

Sunrays of heroes
Surveys until dawn
Smooth viruses
Images of Power
Persistence of loss

Visions with violets
Violence of beginnings
Thunder of Sabbaticals
Waving to decide

Beauty of love
Lustful wanders
Lenders of ancient times
Explain gargled wisdom

My thoughts on a sail
Deciding to wait
Floating snails
Scream of avalanches
Weighting to decide

Let her go

Flowing effortlessly
Like grains of sand
Into her magic land
Let her go my friend.

Feelings tremble
A shadow of pain
Shining bright
Let her go again.

The world ends
Thoughts freeze
Visions coagulate
Just tonight
Let her go my friend

People turn vicious
Words feel dusted
Ideas seem dogmatic
To set you free
Let her come to me

Hope springs in the summer
Warm and effervescent
Touches me deep inside
Heals the crying light.
Feeds her to me tonight

Dreams dripping down the dew
Makers mend me a muse
A ballad bursts by the balloon
Let her grow my friend

Who has the time

I say, I wonder
Time condones and comforts us
It thinks and she sings
Leaves tinker with shyness
In a labyrinth of emotions
They call to my vileness
But who has the time

I wish, I dare
To think of you as mine
Wandering in the dark ages
Going through life's stages
A smile of eternity
A promise of sovereignty
But who has the time

I think, I stare
To share my soul
I strive to hear
Your lonely whispers
In fearful vain I gasp
The inherited loss
But who has the time

I feel, I care
All that I dont understand
To see the darkness
Beyond my illusions
Beneath your reality
Into the soul of humanity
But who has the time

I touch, I cry
Something lurking between you
Tormented love and tested lust
Figurines of violet roses
Dance to the shaman tune
Gazing to the devastated stars

Time always had us.

Moments of Worth

Losing time to gain worth

Gifting time by leasing worth



Words observe and judge

One worth can feel it small

Persisting with time

To end it all



Creatively destroying your wonders

I still gaze with wonder


What is your moment?

What is my worth?


Endless pontifications

Mystifying into

Streams of Creativity


Beginning as

Drains of drudgery


Ending as

Karmic Cavalry


Galaxies whisper

Stars orchestrate


Your moment is my time

Your worth is beyond mine.

Gravity

Free fall my lovely


Endurance of our sapphire enduring

Wishing of our silver wishes

Breathing of your violet breaths

Thoughts of our muddy thinking

Kissing of your ruby kisses

Wishing of our emerald wishes

Touching of your tourmaline touches


Being of our effervescent beings.

Chaos

I love you
I truly do, Chaos

You enter me deep
You leave me asleep

I wish to wonder
If I ever can
Understand
Like you understand

Feelings feel to me
Thoughts heal for me
Ideas kneel to thee

Only to think
Outside the box
I explore the box

Fly with me, Chaos
Let me show you the frills
Teach me your skills

Learn my pain
Leave me again

Teach me change
Leash me again

Don't be scared

Nobody agrees
Nobody cares

I am nobody

Somebody loves
Somebody snares

I am somebody

Nothing dies
Nothing lives

I am nothing

Something feels
Something touches

I am something

No one dreams
No one flies

I am no one

Someone kisses
Someone kills

I am someone

Don't Lie

Heaven's cry until the end of time

Don't lie my child
Nothing will be fine.

Sometimes, its just the way
You are being driven astray

Don't submit to everything
Don't submit for nothing

My tears speak and words feel

Don't lie my child
Everything will be fine.

I am the one

Visit the words and vanquish the idea
Imagine the thought and indulge the being

Presence diminishes and prejudice kills the illusion
Sometimes its me, sometimes its me, waiting to be

Repeat the words and resound in it
I am the one.

While I am lost

While I am lost
Say a few words for me
Wish me luck in this sojourn
For I am never to return

While I am lost
Sing a few lullabies
Wish me death
For I ousted this test

While I am lost
Swell some limericks
Laugh at me in vain
For I am leaving again

While I am lost
Swish some symphonies
Love me some more
For I love you no more

While I am lost
Give me another cause
Wish me some pain
For the darkness should remain

While I am lost
Feed me to your thoughts
Ask me why you ever listened
For I never listened

Birthdays

Sing the hallowed songs of joy
For another year I live with this toy
Just to see if it ever stops
Just to see if it ever stalks

Birthdays come and they stay
Only to haunt me every day
How I stare at you
How you shy away

Is there a guilt you harbor?
Is there a morality you harbor?
There is a life I truly harbor.

Colder, Bolder and older
That is not what I told her
Warmer, wiser and weaker
Wish I could speak to her

In all my weakness lies all my strength
In all my fears lies all my courage
In all my love lies all my hate


Oblivious to all the contradiction
Oblivious to all the pain
You choose to make me sane

Vindicate me, O holy Chaos
From this world of persistent soldiers
Into the world of poignant explorers

Render me another birthday
One I wish would stay.

Beginnings

Beginnings are strange
Endings are stranger

I wonder how long does it pain
Does it ever die in vain?

I think not that I understand
I wonder when will I understand

It was never normal
I was never abnormal
It’s just about moving on
It’s just hard not to move on

The heart aches deeply but slowly
The feelings numb slowly but deeply

Old feelings, old illusions and old lands
New faces, new ideas and new lamps

Time flows in many ways
The heart stays and mind sways

Wishes wish until death
Did I ever say what I meant?

It’s you the heart always wanted
It’s me the mind always wanted

Soulful Earrings and Dreamy Eyes

Boundless beauty and bounful ties
Intricate thoughts and infinite minds
Indian ways and western nays
Eastern says and American hays

I thought I always knew
You knew you always thought
He was self-taught
Always there to tie the knot

Simple sayings dedicated to complex ideas
Single wishes destroyed by conjugal pariahs

Something was always lurking beyond you two
Someone will always exist for you too

Your insecurities will always remain
The thoughts will always constrain
The love shall always sustain


Whose structure is to stay?
Whose love will fade away?
Whose truth is it anyway?
Only time will stay
Rest all will fade away…

Creative cavalry is a constant cause
Blessed in the bliss of boldness
Daunting djinn's of dusty dreams
Often ogle with ominous oldness

How far are you willing to go?
How long are you going to bow?
Who’s to judge who runs the show?
All I know…
This is no place to make a foe

Some come only to go
Others stay till we grow old
I just see a perfect mold…
Your journeys will be forever told

The plea calls from the saintly shadows…

Rust in the yellow breeze
Rise under the blue tide
Return with the golden stride
Conquer the bloody divide!

My dear friends…
It was a pleasure to spend sometime
My being was made with your time
Never do we understand the taciturnity of time
Memories remain and thought’s fade away
The beauty & love will perennially stay.

Structualism

Beyond and beneath the blue sea breeze
A desperate sailor disguises her despair
She scorns her sojourn in this succulent structure
Asking me to analyze its alluring rupture
Warning me not to wane her pain…
Gorgeously I graft away in grains


You see me out there and invite us
Conniving and twisting at your will
Changing and deforming as you will
Making me twist along side
A structure you are now
Do watch out for me…

You see me but I cannot see you
I feel you but you don’t wish to
You are everywhere
I am right here
Thinking...

I eat, sleep and live because of you
I wonder how you gave me the right to think!
With disillusioned eyes I often blink…
I am your slave…I think!

Did I exist for you?
You certainly do
Did you ever care?
I gave my life for you…

Hierarchies I never loved
But I see it in you.
I conquer you only to my hate
Please… set me free to my fate!

You exist in empty spaces
Still...I search for your traces
You make me and my fellow beings
Who gave you the right?
My brother loathes me…
Are you ashamed?
Yet, I bow to you…
Now... do you care?

Hope is the cause and cure
With you I will never be sure
My body is naked because you
It wants to be naked without you

Our ideas are your words
Your words submerge our ideas
My wisdom adds to your knowledge
Your knowledge ousts my wisdom

But when I overpower you
Illusions exists beyond you
For a while, your existence is true

We exist in our duality
I come from you
Into you
Still not you
Still within you

I try and understand your shapes
Only to forge your clandestine drapes

I feel the ability to transcend atoms
I fear the agility to transcend you

I seek my own freedom
You seek your own protection

Endless journeys begin with an ending
Ours never ended…

Your feelings I cannot reason
My reasons you will someday feel…



Under the Ulysses of undying unrest
Endless explanations endure the test
Her hiatus heals as the hour ticks
Idiosyncratic illusions ire in bricks

Emptiness

A message from you comes from my eyes
Feelings haunt and tear the veil
Exposing the naked me
Halting and tarnishing the inner me

Feelings are mirages of illusions
How strong is the feeling of illusions...
The illusion of feelings?

The familiarity of pain never disappoints
Elating me everytime it arrives
Making me feel...
The best I ever can

I miss you beyond meanings and ideas
Maybe I just miss myself crying for you...
For I don’t feel truth anymore

Just another chance I reined
To believe in my innocence
Or just be guilty and feel the pain?
Our pages of eternity are forever dusted and drained...

The thought of you is haunting
Words listen as silence speaks
But I did see you...
Standing there and helplessly waiting for you

Pain was always pleasurable
You were kind to give it to me...

My love is timeless
My sadness is fearless

I wished to always say...
The veil was there for you to discover
Science & Art flow like Water & Air
Needing us more than we care

A beautiful ending it was
A sad beginning it caused

Is it really true?

“I am because you are,
We exist in this age.
Waiting to be loved,
Hating to be loved.”


Something about it can never be true
Someone without it is never true


WHY goes to the HOW and shimmers with the WHEN
Time wraps the best in a velvet rosette.


Live it, Feel it, Heal it
Just to believe in it?


Lust plays the Icebreaker as Love Dances with Reason

The poem undulates on paper
I just stare and wonder.

Is it really true?
I ask you.

Unsung Ambiguity

Feelings whisper as thoughts maneuver
Do Undulations govern us?
Coherence in ambiguity is an asset
Unsung melancholies...our deepest secrets

Shimmering light dipping in ideas
Escalating wishes intruding unsolicited dreams
Beauty meandering... as destiny dances

Siege of money and morals
Battle of self and society
War of illusion and reality

Zoom in to zoom out
Chaos is the blessed order
On the basis of biasness
Nature is the only truth.

Implicit drives to question
Explicit understandings to fear

Why then do we yearn for...?
The Perfect Life.

Why I do What I do

Obvious questions wonder in the heartland
Dejected by the brain they haunt you
Some remain while others vanish
Why I do what I do remains.

Reasons turn into emotions
Emotions tumble into feelings
Feelings escalate into wishes
Wishes resonate in hinterland
They slow down soon.

How beautiful this silence is…
How extreme this feeling might be
How wishful this life can be
How rich this journey will be

Can we just flow sometimes?
Unscathed and untouched
Can we just live sometimes?
Undone and unfinished
Can we just forget everything?
Unfathomable and unavoidable
Can we just be?

Why the purpose?
Why the past?
Why not the present?
Why the future?
Why the question?

Films of ambition
Features of aspiration
Figures of asphyxiation
All…figments of my imagination

Fascinated with existence
Tinkering like a child
Thoughts to feed on…
This life was never mine