happy to be sad.....

the depthness of life seems too shallow
i meet people who are very hollow
feelings are squashed under the feet
i dont even get time to weep
i am moving faster than i ever did
as even my shadow has started to haunt me

i feel like an intellectual fool
i failed and now i must pay my dues
my heart aches n begs me to cry
still i just feel like holding on to those feelings
there is comfort in pain
where is god now when i ask him for a personal gain....

where did i go wrong
what else could i have done
all i wanted was your happiness
with some love in return
u did not even care to take the gifts i collected for u
i cherished them n lived in them for a long time...
how could u be so inhuman....
but i know what u went through
n i really respect u

my selfish nature abounds in my writing
it was my fault as u never loved me....
it was one truth i never wanted to accept
for i never give up....
but even my best was not enough....

i have lost my poetic sense....
the beauty in my poems dissolved...
for the happiest man is sad today
wondering how life ever became this way....

i have wasted enough time crying....
and i wish that my writing devours the tears in my eyes now....
am so happy that i am crying now...
its a new feeling....
i want to forget everything n take it out of me...
i lack the courage to be alive n the nievity to die....

but i will live again as i feel myself again...
i wish u all the happiness in your life
and this dream which is my life will come true...