Rebellion

I need to know...

Why this need

To always swim against the tide

The River merges with the Sea

Yet I fight with both River and Sea

Only to see and speak with Thee

Why rebel?

When you can revel in God's glamour

Tight jeans and loose pockets

I see them all 

Wonder where I fall

No money for glamour

Only ideas that clamour

Someday I too will fit in

Find brothers and sisters

Find love of the beyond

True meaning of all forms

Sinful Sex and Sinister Vibes

Beyond Good and Evil

Is there such a Divine place?

Where even God chills

Until then I rebel...

Find my place in the world

I am done with the perfect

Beauty is fleeting

What is will never be

What could be

What may be

Is forever in me...

Birthday

Born and Celebrate

No hate, no mistakes

Only love, cake and distaste

I can't smile anymore

So lost I am

I can't pretend to like you

Or like myself

It's not working anymore

Why was I born

Certainly not to celebrate

Remembering the haste

Childhood, Schools, Teachers and Waste

Nothing much of value

Waiting for future fortunes which never came

Now I am here

All alone

No one to speak or read my poetry

What a waste it all was

Saving the World

Saving ourselves

What did we even gain?

Leaders came and lost

They spoke and I got lost

Spiritual, Business, Arts, Academic, Sports

Its all the same

Inflated egos and lifestyles

One man to lead

Rest to follow

My miseries I swallow

Never got why this even is

Why can't we be friends?

Its my birthday again

Another year of misery and failures

Another year of loosing it all

Yet I need to smile when you say

Happy Birthday!!!!

I am not happy

Its not my birthday

There is no time

There is no space

Just existence

Forever was

Forever is

I am the creator

I am the created

No time for cake

No mistakes or distastes

Just existence