So many people hate me

I always grew up wanting to be liked by everyone.Wanting to be appreciated basically an attention seeking phobia. I mended my reality a lot and myself to some extend to get to the good side of a lot of people.Somehow it took me a few years to get good at it and then I mastered it.The one key was to be genuine and a good listener.But soon I realised I did not have an identity of my own and different people had different opinions of me. I had become a perfect public figure. For a long time I hung on to it but now I have started to break free of it. When I meet someone I can figure out which side of me to instigate. However, it seems so fake to be someone I am not just for their sake.Eventhough I always maintained a set of values, I was chained by people.I have started becoming what I want to and now so many people hate me. There are clashes of identity of being cool,emotional,artistic,intelligent,practical,idealistic,nice and I find comany for each sect. A perfect amalgamation is impossible and it always ends up being random.My lack of commitment and rather openess makes me hated in a lot of ways among different sects.The people I want to love the most end up hating me the most.Its a classic example of Genius Failure paradox. What saves me usually is my general love for mankind and kind nature.Honestly,I know what I am doing is just an effort for exposure and it is exactly how I define college life.I need stability sometime soon realising the minor futility of the concept.There is no end to learning and exposure.I will never be there.

It hurts sometime when you are hated.Maybe this is just a transition or just a begining.Since I dont choose a stereotypical life, I have got to get used to it.Just that I prefer having a few people who understand me the way I am and dont hate me ! I always have seen this reality becoming a mirage.

Hoping to practice what I preach
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