Forgiveness

I never understood weather it is possible to forgive anyone truly. As humans we tend to care for people n love becomes something people really treasure. Having hurt people myself I did realize that sometimes nothing works. No matter how much you do or say, the one word or action ruins everything. Time I thought can be a healer but its just so much insecurity and confusion that builds up that finally you just let go. People do change. I have changed so much over time and when I look back at certain incidents, I just feel so sad for the way I acted. Life is always a learning experience but sometimes some lessons are just too hard n live on for a life time. I learnt the importance of being genuine and not looking down at people.If I could ever get apology from some people who I have totally lost touch with, It would actually mean the world to me.I still wish to do anything to get back things I have lost but sometimes realizing how the other person gets offended is so much of a reason to sit back and live the pain. Thinking of new ways to revive lost thoughts and feelings, soon to realize how it all becomes and remains in the mind only and sometimes comes down as words. I never thought I am a bad person but I do make big mistakes couresy my immaculate confidence and self belief. Some mistakes have been etched so deep in my heart that whenever someone tries to come close, it just hurts so much more. Achievements, matiruity, thoughts, helping people n all such things become futile sometime if the time is gone. When people say that you dont even know them so much after complications occur, It just kills everything. Well nobody can judge and will judge all I can say is that I am terribly sorry. The personal image does drop as society judges, let people be sometimes. Nobody is that perfect and feels a big loss time and again.I know what I need and still believe it is very tough to come. Well nobody can judge and will judge all I can say is that I am terribly sorry. Sorry.