Friday, March 28, 2008
Forgiveness
I never understood weather it is possible to forgive anyone truly. As humans we tend to care for people n love becomes something people really treasure. Having hurt people myself I did realize that sometimes nothing works. No matter how much you do or say, the one word or action ruins everything. Time I thought can be a healer but its just so much insecurity and confusion that builds up that finally you just let go. People do change. I have changed so much over time and when I look back at certain incidents, I just feel so sad for the way I acted. Life is always a learning experience but sometimes some lessons are just too hard n live on for a life time. I learnt the importance of being genuine and not looking down at people.If I could ever get apology from some people who I have totally lost touch with, It would actually mean the world to me.I still wish to do anything to get back things I have lost but sometimes realizing how the other person gets offended is so much of a reason to sit back and live the pain. Thinking of new ways to revive lost thoughts and feelings, soon to realize how it all becomes and remains in the mind only and sometimes comes down as words. I never thought I am a bad person but I do make big mistakes couresy my immaculate confidence and self belief. Some mistakes have been etched so deep in my heart that whenever someone tries to come close, it just hurts so much more. Achievements, matiruity, thoughts, helping people n all such things become futile sometime if the time is gone. When people say that you dont even know them so much after complications occur, It just kills everything. Well nobody can judge and will judge all I can say is that I am terribly sorry. The personal image does drop as society judges, let people be sometimes. Nobody is that perfect and feels a big loss time and again.I know what I need and still believe it is very tough to come. Well nobody can judge and will judge all I can say is that I am terribly sorry. Sorry.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
What is reality...My confusions and confessions
I honestly detest harbouring any sort of confusions in my mind. At a recent debate I was asked what my definition of reality is. Somehow my ability to present arguments which give a different angle all the time was strangled. Making up some good english sentences I left the stage admitting the judge got the better side of the idealist me. Coming out of pessimism earlier in my life, I had defined reality as the ability to achieve anything and everything. To my surprise there were to be many clauses to this thinking.Destiny was cursed enough thankfully, to not waste an iota of space in my mind.
Reality is governed by our hopes,passions,achievements,people. Most of the factors depend on us to draft ourselves the way we like.
In the field of science, art and commerce impossible is but a word of intimidation. Dreaming is a prerequisite to devlop the vision and the idea. Hardwork,Intelligence and genral personality play a major role in framing the outcome. All these things can me mended provided the resources and commitment is there.In short it is a possibility.
Relationships and people however have abstract behaviour. "You can never make anyone love you". Free will has to be respected to bring out feelings from within rather than being instigated by fear or social insecurity or any other dubious factor. It hurts idealistic people the most to accept this fact and maintain a psychological balance.
At a certain time a being does not possess the sources to achieve what he wishes. The causes can be limitation of thoughts,materialistic shortcomings, emotional bindings etc. Timing is again an important factor. Realising that timing is a factor is a bigger factor. Keeping these loopholes in mind reality can be defined as "sensible dreaming and subsequent achieving". This statement chokes the ideology of life being one's best friend to offer anything and everything we wish provided we work on it.
Nobody thought it was possible to have a concept like "relativity" until Einstein started working on it. His reality was a journey rather than a destination.He could never bring out "The Theory Of Everything" which combined Quantum Mechanics and General Relativity. Until now it has not been found. Scientists have been working on a theory called " String/Membrane Theory" for the last twenty years to solve this problem which just shows how some people think with no strings attached. The end result is obviously a fruit to savour, however the path is more brilliant. Of dreaming the extraordinary and woking towards it. Success in this regard depends on the same factors described before ranging from intelligence to limitations. The risk involved is much more but satisfaction as many believe putting themselves in other's shoes is higher.
Nature can often play spoil sport and there are even situations where man has won over nautre be the vertical spread of Earthquake ridden Tokyo or the entire existance of mankind during the Ice Age. However if the planet was to be striked out by some phenomena of nature we could not have done anything to prevent it. Or maybe we could have. Just our belief that we cannot, helps to convince us that we cannot. If someone starts working on such vague complications we might just have a solution.
The problem arises in estimating the power and influence of (Nature/ God/Supernatural Entities/Destiny). Anyone and everyone who has tried to give a scientific solution related to this has been unsuccessful. Till now basic concepts like Evolution have not been decoded.Religious doctrines often define the limitaion of the human race and offer advice to devlop faith.
Overall outcome comes to a choice of deciding your interpretation of reality. My Personal belief is that some universal power governs the entire system. I have no fear in accepting that I belive in challenging it whenever required.
We can dream about anything. The more we work for it our chances increase of achieving it. Let the road be your prerogative achievements will surprise you. This is reality for me.
That debate should have been won.
Reality is governed by our hopes,passions,achievements,people. Most of the factors depend on us to draft ourselves the way we like.
In the field of science, art and commerce impossible is but a word of intimidation. Dreaming is a prerequisite to devlop the vision and the idea. Hardwork,Intelligence and genral personality play a major role in framing the outcome. All these things can me mended provided the resources and commitment is there.In short it is a possibility.
Relationships and people however have abstract behaviour. "You can never make anyone love you". Free will has to be respected to bring out feelings from within rather than being instigated by fear or social insecurity or any other dubious factor. It hurts idealistic people the most to accept this fact and maintain a psychological balance.
At a certain time a being does not possess the sources to achieve what he wishes. The causes can be limitation of thoughts,materialistic shortcomings, emotional bindings etc. Timing is again an important factor. Realising that timing is a factor is a bigger factor. Keeping these loopholes in mind reality can be defined as "sensible dreaming and subsequent achieving". This statement chokes the ideology of life being one's best friend to offer anything and everything we wish provided we work on it.
Nobody thought it was possible to have a concept like "relativity" until Einstein started working on it. His reality was a journey rather than a destination.He could never bring out "The Theory Of Everything" which combined Quantum Mechanics and General Relativity. Until now it has not been found. Scientists have been working on a theory called " String/Membrane Theory" for the last twenty years to solve this problem which just shows how some people think with no strings attached. The end result is obviously a fruit to savour, however the path is more brilliant. Of dreaming the extraordinary and woking towards it. Success in this regard depends on the same factors described before ranging from intelligence to limitations. The risk involved is much more but satisfaction as many believe putting themselves in other's shoes is higher.
Nature can often play spoil sport and there are even situations where man has won over nautre be the vertical spread of Earthquake ridden Tokyo or the entire existance of mankind during the Ice Age. However if the planet was to be striked out by some phenomena of nature we could not have done anything to prevent it. Or maybe we could have. Just our belief that we cannot, helps to convince us that we cannot. If someone starts working on such vague complications we might just have a solution.
The problem arises in estimating the power and influence of (Nature/ God/Supernatural Entities/Destiny). Anyone and everyone who has tried to give a scientific solution related to this has been unsuccessful. Till now basic concepts like Evolution have not been decoded.Religious doctrines often define the limitaion of the human race and offer advice to devlop faith.
Overall outcome comes to a choice of deciding your interpretation of reality. My Personal belief is that some universal power governs the entire system. I have no fear in accepting that I belive in challenging it whenever required.
We can dream about anything. The more we work for it our chances increase of achieving it. Let the road be your prerogative achievements will surprise you. This is reality for me.
That debate should have been won.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Swimming back to reality
Some why’s need to be left
Some doors need to be shut
Some feelings need to be numb
Some happiness needs to be fake
Some hope needs to be there
Some dumbness should be fed in
Some illusions need to be real
Some dreams should be tainted
Some time needs to be given
Some doors need to be shut
Some feelings need to be numb
Some happiness needs to be fake
Some hope needs to be there
Some dumbness should be fed in
Some illusions need to be real
Some dreams should be tainted
Some time needs to be given
Saturday, March 1, 2008
So many people hate me
I always grew up wanting to be liked by everyone.Wanting to be appreciated basically an attention seeking phobia. I mended my reality a lot and myself to some extend to get to the good side of a lot of people.Somehow it took me a few years to get good at it and then I mastered it.The one key was to be genuine and a good listener.But soon I realised I did not have an identity of my own and different people had different opinions of me. I had become a perfect public figure. For a long time I hung on to it but now I have started to break free of it. When I meet someone I can figure out which side of me to instigate. However, it seems so fake to be someone I am not just for their sake.Eventhough I always maintained a set of values, I was chained by people.I have started becoming what I want to and now so many people hate me. There are clashes of identity of being cool,emotional,artistic,intelligent,practical,idealistic,nice and I find comany for each sect. A perfect amalgamation is impossible and it always ends up being random.My lack of commitment and rather openess makes me hated in a lot of ways among different sects.The people I want to love the most end up hating me the most.Its a classic example of Genius Failure paradox. What saves me usually is my general love for mankind and kind nature.Honestly,I know what I am doing is just an effort for exposure and it is exactly how I define college life.I need stability sometime soon realising the minor futility of the concept.There is no end to learning and exposure.I will never be there.
It hurts sometime when you are hated.Maybe this is just a transition or just a begining.Since I dont choose a stereotypical life, I have got to get used to it.Just that I prefer having a few people who understand me the way I am and dont hate me ! I always have seen this reality becoming a mirage.
Hoping to practice what I preach
The Google approach to Life:
"Its Simple"
It hurts sometime when you are hated.Maybe this is just a transition or just a begining.Since I dont choose a stereotypical life, I have got to get used to it.Just that I prefer having a few people who understand me the way I am and dont hate me ! I always have seen this reality becoming a mirage.
Hoping to practice what I preach
The Google approach to Life:
"Its Simple"
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